Friends pa rin? :-)

Dear March 18, 2011 (Friday),

I will never forget you. Ever.

You are the last day of UPLB Fair. You are the most awaited date for UPLB grads who seldom visit elbi. You paved way for me and my elbi friends to hang out, talk, eat, smoke, drink, etc. (*wink). Just the thought of you approaching made me really excited and file a vacation leave a week in advance. I am always there for you, save for that 2007 FebFair I missed (binulutong kasi ako. LOL).

But this time, it will be different.

You share an event this day, which recently became significant to me. It was Kuya No. 1's birthday. His 22^nd birthday to be specific.

Since Monday (February 14), I’ve been thinking really hard on where I should be. My elbi friends are expecting me to be there. We have so many things planned for this day. Tuesday, my friends knew about my dilemma. They were pretty much upset about it. “Jackfry” warned me that If I would not make it, our friendship will be over. I knew that this is not that serious as it appears to be but I just cannot disappoint him. Not on this time when he’s been going through tough times and I could not convince myself that he, being one of my closest elbi friends, will understand me If I won’t make it to elbi.

And so I went to elbi. Half-heartedly. I was in elbi but my mind (urgh, ok, heart) was somewhere else. I was wondering what has been happening on  Kuya No. 1's bithday party. You see, I became so attached to the new “tropa” (see my “Live a Happier Life” post) that I nearly missed elbi fair for them. Kuya No. 1 personally invited meto attend his bithday celebration a week earlier. In fact, he was the one who put his birthday on my phone’s calendar. I never informed him that I won’t be on his birthday party and that I will be in elbi. I want him to get mad at me for not making it to his birthday party. Crazy right? Maybe I just want him to notice my absence and eventually demand my time. But came the night of his birthday, he never texted me at all. I nearly burst into tears. Thank God I’m with my elbi friends who comforted me.

One of Kuya No. 1’s friend who acted as a spy for me informed me that the reason why Kuya No. 1  is not texting me is because he is with his girlfriend. I felt bad. Parang naiwan ako sa ere. Parang nagamit lang ako. Bobo. Sh*t.

I never really enjoyed FebFair because of what he did to me. But that helped me to arrive at a decision which proves to be right to-date.I bid goodbye to my other SIM card containing his number which ideally should mark the end of those damn awesome days with Kuya No. 1.

Thank you March 18, 2011.

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Updates:

(1)   I’m sooo over Kuya No. 1. 

(2)   I don’t have Kuya No. 1's number anymore. I never asked for his number. But we are still FB friends. We chat whenever we’re both on-line.

(3)   We are okay as friends. I initially thought of forgetting him and the tropa as If they were never my friends. Pero ang bigat. Ang hirap. Moving on is difficult if the other party remains bitter. We both agreed to preserve the friendship: a win-win case which works both on our advantage to-date. At least now, we still have “friendship” between us.

All the lessons I’ve learned through this whole experience may be put as follows:

1.      There are cases where HUMAN A fell in love with HUMAN B but could not love the former in return for some reason (e.g., not ready yet, ‘di talo, etc.) is normal.

2.      If HUMAN A and HUMAN B started out as friends, they may still remain as friends after all what happened. In most cases, this proves to be beneficial for both parties involved.

3.      If HUMAN A remains persistent about what he/she feels for HUMAN B, there is nothing wrong with HUMAN B. HUMAN A, being a friend in the first place, should understand him.

4.      In certain cases, there will be other HUMANS C-Z (who might be friends with HUMAN A and/or B) that might get involved in the scene. This is normal. Remember HUMAN B, HUMAN A is madly in love with you. There is some tendencies for HUMAN A to feel protective and possessive of you. But all will be well. Napaguusapan naman yan e.

Eto ang tragic:

5.      HUMAN B decides to avoid HUMAN A. Avoidance may soon lead to disregard. Yes, HUMAN B lost a lover. But at the same time, HUMAN B lost a friend. And depending on how “mean” HUMAN B treats HUMAN A, HUMAN B might soon find himself an enemy. Who wants an enemy?

Treasure friendship. This is one way of living a happier life. J